Repeat.Repeat.Repeat. Awaken.Sleep.Awaken.Sleep.Repeat.Repeat.Repeat. Do not think.Pray not to dream.Think only of the moment, ignore tomorrow, hide yesterday, and believe in the seconds of breath that you currently have. Repeat.Repeat.Repeat. Let your dreams die.Let your imagination fade away.Let yourself step into the truth. Repeat.Repeat.Repeat. Awaken.Sleep.Awaken.Sleep.Repeat.Repeat.Repeat. I would tell you that “I’m fine”, but instead I’ll simply share … Continue reading Return of the Runner
Trigger Warning: It is imperative for the reader to understand that this piece involves anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Please do not progress further into this writing if you are uncomfortable with the specific topic. If this was the 1970s I would have a typewriter set up in a room with a musty, yellowish lightbulb humming … Continue reading Longest Run
That one time I got hit by a truck...
Every year I pop out to High Lonesome, I think to myself, in an imaginative voice, "I'm one step closer to my destiny." Then I park at Hancock Aid Station, try to breathe, and realize the inherent truth that is before me. I choose life. High Lonesome 100 is a hugely, insanely, bigly, addictive race … Continue reading Volunteering Ultra Round III: High Lonesome 100
Desperately gasping for breath, a rasping, wheezing chain-smoking cough, aching, possibly blistered feet, and a knot in my stomach indicating that the concept of violent, projectile vomit was surprisingly high... ...at mile 2. Make no mistake, there is a slight pride in knowing that I make several dumb choices during, before, and after trail races … Continue reading Race Recap: North Fork 50K…and the DEA?
It has been a while since I've typed...ran...raced...puked...lived much of anything within the trail community. After the race in June of 2018 (2018!) I definitely hit a long stretch of lonely miles, uncertainties with my health, and just an overall adjustment in what I really wanted to accomplish as a runner. Meaning; I'm truly no … Continue reading Race Recap: Bacon & The Back 40
For the new reader; we left off on this random adventure of nonsense with a trip to the emergency room, Troponin, and chest pains. After four and half hours of entertaining nurses with unstoppable word vomit (I am so sorry to the University of Kansas Emergency Room), I was informed that I would be seeing … Continue reading Injury Reserve: Break Hearts? (Round II)
Someday's it is best to be cliche. Looking through the last week of 2017, and the first week of 2018, I noted the people who braved that rabid society of judgement and departure, and posted their goals in the running/health world for the upcoming year. Make no mistake; I am not a fan of resolutions … Continue reading Less Is More: A Guide to 2018
Has anyone else purchased a pretzel only to wonder what being a pretzel is all about? Neither have I. However, I did grow up in a world that was bent on ensuring that I never spent anytime around those long haired, hipster, Fair Trade Coffee sipping, granola crunchy yoga people. Those people. Since my adventures … Continue reading Yoga: Being the Pretzel